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my little (big) ones were passed out after church.
they still had their dress shoes and sparkly pink and grey dresses on, still snuggled in their pink coats and lamb hats. they look so calm and peaceful. i love that.
i don't love it solely for the hour of quietness, the hour of my hubs and i softly wondering what we used to do sunday afternoons, the hour of having rocky lounge around without any fear of getting a strong hug or a quick pull on his tail... i love it for the anticipation of the loud excitement and the cherished snuggles that will happen when my wide-eyed girls stop napping and rejoin us. 
no matter what they decide to do when they wake... whine a little at first, whimper daddy and mommy's name, giggle a lot, hug tightly, sing loudly, twirl and twirl... they just never disappoint. they always seem to make every wait worthwhile.
since the day we first saw two flickers on an ultrasound.

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